Hello Reader-family-friend.
I have been feeling my heart become more comfortable with finding traveling as my home. I am ready to see what is beyond Los Angelas, California. I have learned that there are many issues in the world that need help in being addressed. I can not do it alone and plan not too! I need the Body of Christ to be with me on serving the wounded.
“I saw the messiness of the church politics and egotism...So I became quite disenchanted with the church, though I was still fascinated with Jesus”.- Irresistible Revolution by Shane Claiborne
Shane Claiborne is a person I look up to. Hopefully will one day have the pleasures to live in a community with. I understand his view of the church and quite agree with him because of the Spirit leading my own thoughts about how some in the church and I myself could/should live.
I ask my self everyday "God, Where are you?" most times it is out of desperation and I really can not see him nor differentiate the church from the world which brings some heart ache and hopelessness to my soul. I do not know if YWAM will be a part of full filling this gray void or growing it in me. God, I ask not.
All I know,
God is real, Jesus has died for our miss aimed shots to the bulls eye, the holy spirit is teaching us how to turn ourselves and encourage others to turn around into the arms of Jesus.
I do indeed care for people which is why I would like to see more glimpses of people doing it. I love the communities around me so I do critic them because we can not become stagnate. I know I maybe harsh for the first few weeks of the YWAM program. Not harsh to the people, people do not bother me, its the crap they feed to others that bothers me. We want the truth
I am feisty. This prophetic guy told me I am a lil ball of fire, a feisty one under neath the quiet shy guy. Yep the more life goes the more I realize-I am feisty.
I am looking forward to YWAM. God is going to do some awesome things for his people. God will lead us. God is true to his words and will not hold out on his son's and daughter's. Jesus has gone before the Father in heaven and made our wrongs just. Setting all things right before God and allowing us to take part in his Kingdom by the Holy Spirit. We are honored to be human being because we get to live with God, the Father. Praise God.
Good night Peeps, sorry if the theology or my ideas are incorrect.
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Sunday, December 28, 2008
The New Year is coming!!!!
Hello Reader-family-friend,
SO Christmas is done and this years ending is following. With money that has been given to me as a gift for christmas I have gotten a few good items for BOSTON. I bought a hicking pack that carries a sleeping bag and camelpak. The hicking pack is a REI bag so I am sure it shall last for a long time. I bought a camelpak which is a pak that I fill with water and store in my bag or carry alone. I bought clothes that are going to be much needed for warmth. I believe I am good on clothes now....so yeah that is all for Boston stuff. Still going to grab a few things but those last items can waite.
I am presently making a few pieces of art for a going away gallery in january. Yep, I am ready to leave to whatever God is going to do. I am reading a lot of books to help my mind just stay in the present. I have many thoughts and dreams about Boston and what I would like to do and see be done outside and inside of the team.
Crazy, I am going to meet people outside these borders and live with them. Learn about connecting with cultures and adopting their ways of life. God has been telling me about the stories that he wants me to bring to these cultures and communities. I am looking forward and I am sure all of this will change once I arrive because I really dont know what to expect.
Just to remind those of you who are still intrested in donating. Donations will be accepted until the end of july. Please, if God is asking you to donate, do it.
It is funny how I am in this position of need and now when God tells me to do somethings for another I am able to do it because I understand the mentallity and emotion of need. At least a shallow understanding...
Well peeps, have a good time. Love God through thick and thin. Bye
let me know if you have any questions.
SO Christmas is done and this years ending is following. With money that has been given to me as a gift for christmas I have gotten a few good items for BOSTON. I bought a hicking pack that carries a sleeping bag and camelpak. The hicking pack is a REI bag so I am sure it shall last for a long time. I bought a camelpak which is a pak that I fill with water and store in my bag or carry alone. I bought clothes that are going to be much needed for warmth. I believe I am good on clothes now....so yeah that is all for Boston stuff. Still going to grab a few things but those last items can waite.
I am presently making a few pieces of art for a going away gallery in january. Yep, I am ready to leave to whatever God is going to do. I am reading a lot of books to help my mind just stay in the present. I have many thoughts and dreams about Boston and what I would like to do and see be done outside and inside of the team.
Crazy, I am going to meet people outside these borders and live with them. Learn about connecting with cultures and adopting their ways of life. God has been telling me about the stories that he wants me to bring to these cultures and communities. I am looking forward and I am sure all of this will change once I arrive because I really dont know what to expect.
Just to remind those of you who are still intrested in donating. Donations will be accepted until the end of july. Please, if God is asking you to donate, do it.
It is funny how I am in this position of need and now when God tells me to do somethings for another I am able to do it because I understand the mentallity and emotion of need. At least a shallow understanding...
Well peeps, have a good time. Love God through thick and thin. Bye
let me know if you have any questions.
Saturday, December 20, 2008
THE GOAL IS NOT TO BE IN YWAM BUT OBEDIENT TO GOD.
Hello Reader-Friends-Family
I have reached 1,000 dollars!!!! Through donations, selling T-shirts, and my last check from working at the whole enchilada. I have not received any check from The Whole Enchilada fund raising so it is still a mystery to how much was made at the three events.
I am glad to reach 1,000, still have more to go but I am not afraid. Recently I called YWAM and asked them what happens when I do not reach the goal price their response is "God provides". I am going to just take it with as little thought of complaint as possible.
With or with out the money I am leaving to Boston. I will show up with what I have and ask Him what next after the first day in Boston....he may ask for me to go back home this is as far as i am going in YWAM. I am just remembering that God works correctly, not like us.
THE GOAL IS NOT TO BE IN YWAM BUT TO BE OBEDIENT TO GOD.
A wild beast being brought to sanity by following the only Humanbeing, Christ.
I have reached 1,000 dollars!!!! Through donations, selling T-shirts, and my last check from working at the whole enchilada. I have not received any check from The Whole Enchilada fund raising so it is still a mystery to how much was made at the three events.
I am glad to reach 1,000, still have more to go but I am not afraid. Recently I called YWAM and asked them what happens when I do not reach the goal price their response is "God provides". I am going to just take it with as little thought of complaint as possible.
With or with out the money I am leaving to Boston. I will show up with what I have and ask Him what next after the first day in Boston....he may ask for me to go back home this is as far as i am going in YWAM. I am just remembering that God works correctly, not like us.
THE GOAL IS NOT TO BE IN YWAM BUT TO BE OBEDIENT TO GOD.
A wild beast being brought to sanity by following the only Humanbeing, Christ.
Monday, December 15, 2008
Things are moving and I am.....
Hello Family-Friends-Reader.
I am moving a long in fund raising. I am working on a tone of new art to sell for fund raising. This Thursday is a fund raiser at the Whole enchilada all day, please go.
Art is moving along. School is over and I am hanging out with Jesus and look forward to hanging out with his people.
I have been praying and asking for Gods help, things haven't been the same recently. I have come to a realization that I am fighting and living for a Kingdom not always seen nor easy to understand. I keep thinking should I maybe drop this YWAM and retreat back to school to make a living before I travel. I think about this but then I realize God is bigger then school and all this junk that America may say is important. I am learning to see the system but not be apart of the system; rather be of Gods Kingdom. I am empty of so many modern material and left to identify with the least of Brethren. I do not know what Jesus did to be sufficient in the younger days of the world. He is the only human and the only human that was able to not mistake Gods words and leading. Jesus must have gone through so many insicurities of not being with the "in" crowd but rather turning heads to the bigger picture. Through setting focus to the bigger picture many grim secrets were exposed so we can live in the Almighty presence...but i know many were and still many are pissed when God exposes them.
Anyways...
Jesus is awesome and we are invited to party with him. Through all the difficult speeches of preachers and modern day pharisees-Jesus encouraged us to love God with our everything and love each other. If we love God through thick and thin then we can love eachother through thick and thin.
Keep loving till the end.
Peace out. Thank you for reading.
I am moving a long in fund raising. I am working on a tone of new art to sell for fund raising. This Thursday is a fund raiser at the Whole enchilada all day, please go.
Art is moving along. School is over and I am hanging out with Jesus and look forward to hanging out with his people.
I have been praying and asking for Gods help, things haven't been the same recently. I have come to a realization that I am fighting and living for a Kingdom not always seen nor easy to understand. I keep thinking should I maybe drop this YWAM and retreat back to school to make a living before I travel. I think about this but then I realize God is bigger then school and all this junk that America may say is important. I am learning to see the system but not be apart of the system; rather be of Gods Kingdom. I am empty of so many modern material and left to identify with the least of Brethren. I do not know what Jesus did to be sufficient in the younger days of the world. He is the only human and the only human that was able to not mistake Gods words and leading. Jesus must have gone through so many insicurities of not being with the "in" crowd but rather turning heads to the bigger picture. Through setting focus to the bigger picture many grim secrets were exposed so we can live in the Almighty presence...but i know many were and still many are pissed when God exposes them.
Anyways...
Jesus is awesome and we are invited to party with him. Through all the difficult speeches of preachers and modern day pharisees-Jesus encouraged us to love God with our everything and love each other. If we love God through thick and thin then we can love eachother through thick and thin.
Keep loving till the end.
Peace out. Thank you for reading.
Saturday, December 6, 2008
HECK-tic.
Hello Reader-Family-Friend
Things have been difficult, short of time and not going as planned but that is OK. My mind hasn’t had a breathe of air for a while as things are becoming over whelming. Through all this, Christ is tough! Jesus keeps saying to me "You expected this to be easy, to be cheap like a youth group, like sunday morning church. Well let’s change that perspective."
It is totally changing and that is fine. To lose myself in Christ truly sounds like breathing. I dislike myself a lot and others too, with Christ who is perfect in actions, emotions, mentality of love, I hope to learn an ounce of that love He has for us. Hope fully more then an ounce but with a thick head like mine IDK.
As for YWAM fund raising-this sunday @ the Whole Enchilada is a fund raising event all day. Show up any time, tell your server that you are there for Jordan's Fund raising. 20% goes to Jordan’s YWAM journey so the more people the bigger donation to me.
If your do not wish to go to The Whole Enchilada but would like to donate something (notice i wrote something) then email me so we may be in touch about how you can participate in helping me in little or big ways.
Checks are addressed to me Jordan Esquivel. If you need my address email me or email me for my number and you can call me too.
Little or big ways you can help. Well I need a good sleeping bag that would be able to keep me warm in snow, a hiking bag that can hold a sleeping bag on it as well a tone of good pockets to place important items. Socks, thick and thin socks, hiking boots, pants, and gloves.
There are many ways to help.
Well thank you for reading. May God lead you on your journey and if I could help you in anything too, please ask.
The body of Christ is not individualistic nor has any denominations we are all family with Christ.
Things have been difficult, short of time and not going as planned but that is OK. My mind hasn’t had a breathe of air for a while as things are becoming over whelming. Through all this, Christ is tough! Jesus keeps saying to me "You expected this to be easy, to be cheap like a youth group, like sunday morning church. Well let’s change that perspective."
It is totally changing and that is fine. To lose myself in Christ truly sounds like breathing. I dislike myself a lot and others too, with Christ who is perfect in actions, emotions, mentality of love, I hope to learn an ounce of that love He has for us. Hope fully more then an ounce but with a thick head like mine IDK.
As for YWAM fund raising-this sunday @ the Whole Enchilada is a fund raising event all day. Show up any time, tell your server that you are there for Jordan's Fund raising. 20% goes to Jordan’s YWAM journey so the more people the bigger donation to me.
If your do not wish to go to The Whole Enchilada but would like to donate something (notice i wrote something) then email me so we may be in touch about how you can participate in helping me in little or big ways.
Checks are addressed to me Jordan Esquivel. If you need my address email me or email me for my number and you can call me too.
Little or big ways you can help. Well I need a good sleeping bag that would be able to keep me warm in snow, a hiking bag that can hold a sleeping bag on it as well a tone of good pockets to place important items. Socks, thick and thin socks, hiking boots, pants, and gloves.
There are many ways to help.
Well thank you for reading. May God lead you on your journey and if I could help you in anything too, please ask.
The body of Christ is not individualistic nor has any denominations we are all family with Christ.
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