Dear Family,
The end is here. I am done with YWAM in 24 hrs, I have my goodbyes and love you alls ready for my team. This time has been a gut ripping and gut healing experience which is why I love it. God showed him self to me in new ways and taught me how to hear and be aware of him even more them before. I am still learning but I have a stronger footing on the ground. I am excited to speak to many of you in person about Gods movment in my heart and in this world. He is not finished and neither am I, I am responding to his lead by staying on staff next year.
Presently I am reading the prophetic books of the bible and had a sence from God that if I studdy these things I will know him more and have a broder imagintation for art. I have already begun this study and it has already been transforming my views of whom God is and whom I am to him. This is yet another first love journey with God.
I have many memeories with my team and cherish them, I will tell you all detail with out any editing. I am excitied to see Cali again, to meet you all in person again!
If you want to meet up with me, email me quickly so we can make plans.
j.esquivel1112@gmail.com
Your brother,
Jordan
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Friday, June 26, 2009
MY CAT IS THE CUTTEST!!!!
Dear Friends at YWAM,
I am presently at CA to be apart of my older brothers wedding, which is going very well! I am grate-full to be here to see my brothers life be complete with a woman that he is choosing to be committed to. I support them and will continue till the end! : )
Yeah, my family is wicked awesome. I am seeing that in this time of being home, since I have been gone I have been filled with a love for people. In this more care for my family and how I treat them. I am a fallen human so I did not care about how I treated some people but then Jesus came in and turned that upside down. I want to care for people and be able to say that I did honestly to God and to the person too. The act of love is not a joke in my heart any more, when i do it I want to do it well.
Yep, I would like to say my cat is the greatest, she has big yellow/green eyes and I love that about her. Then she goes crazy and plays with my feet and hands which is great! I like this cat and she may be the only one!....
My being is tired, GOOD NIGHT!
I am presently at CA to be apart of my older brothers wedding, which is going very well! I am grate-full to be here to see my brothers life be complete with a woman that he is choosing to be committed to. I support them and will continue till the end! : )
Yeah, my family is wicked awesome. I am seeing that in this time of being home, since I have been gone I have been filled with a love for people. In this more care for my family and how I treat them. I am a fallen human so I did not care about how I treated some people but then Jesus came in and turned that upside down. I want to care for people and be able to say that I did honestly to God and to the person too. The act of love is not a joke in my heart any more, when i do it I want to do it well.
Yep, I would like to say my cat is the greatest, she has big yellow/green eyes and I love that about her. Then she goes crazy and plays with my feet and hands which is great! I like this cat and she may be the only one!....
My being is tired, GOOD NIGHT!
Friday, June 12, 2009
ART!
I can not waite to get back to the states to sit and do art. I need freedom to paint and sketch with intense screaming music. Oh yes, this will lighten up my life!
Things are beginning to get rough here in this heart of mine. I am tired and need your prayer to keep a open heart to what God is doing here in the U.K. This is my last week and I am very tired. I am witnessing God move in the U.K., my life is changing by it.
Thank you for your support it does mean a lot to me.
Things are beginning to get rough here in this heart of mine. I am tired and need your prayer to keep a open heart to what God is doing here in the U.K. This is my last week and I am very tired. I am witnessing God move in the U.K., my life is changing by it.
Thank you for your support it does mean a lot to me.
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Rejections becomes so tirered-some
Dear Family,
I am presently living in a house and you have no idea how good it feels to be in a bed for the first time in a long time. I have my own room so I am spending much time reading and talking with Jesus. My host is very kind, make sures I have enough to be comfortable. I am very grateful to be in a house rather then be in a church or a room filled with odd smells that are unexplainable...
This new place is a town outside of London and let me tell you the people here are not so open to hearing about Jesus. I was speechless to how people would bring up excuses or ideas to why things are the way they are, people accept anything to avoid dealing with difficult questions about life and coming before God. Yes, rejections is difficult to accept but I can handle it better now then in the past. I am rather finding it delightful to be disliked by some people; at least these few are being honest about rejecting the message of Christ. I am tired and I have hit the gravel with my simple faith. I walked into a restroom and told God "I am ready to go through the term oil with you because I know you have already gone through, now let me come with you" I can choose and almost was ready to just give up at moments for the first time today but still something deep inside allowed me to keep going. It was curiosity that led me to neal before God and surrender the thought of giving up, I know there is more to God and I am not ready to give up on Him. He is never ready to give up on us so it is just time to believe in something bigger then my self which is Jesus.
I walked into the church that we are working with and God gave me hope through this song. Reminded me of his works in my life, his love and his great forgiveness in my life.
"And I’m trying to make you sing
From inside where you believe
Like it’s something that you need
Like it means everything
And I’m trying to make you feel that
This is for real, that life is happening
That it means everything
I’m just trying to make you sing"
David Crowder Band
May the eyes of man be open to His glory. May His reality be our new reality because it is the truth to our freedom.
LOVE
I am presently living in a house and you have no idea how good it feels to be in a bed for the first time in a long time. I have my own room so I am spending much time reading and talking with Jesus. My host is very kind, make sures I have enough to be comfortable. I am very grateful to be in a house rather then be in a church or a room filled with odd smells that are unexplainable...
This new place is a town outside of London and let me tell you the people here are not so open to hearing about Jesus. I was speechless to how people would bring up excuses or ideas to why things are the way they are, people accept anything to avoid dealing with difficult questions about life and coming before God. Yes, rejections is difficult to accept but I can handle it better now then in the past. I am rather finding it delightful to be disliked by some people; at least these few are being honest about rejecting the message of Christ. I am tired and I have hit the gravel with my simple faith. I walked into a restroom and told God "I am ready to go through the term oil with you because I know you have already gone through, now let me come with you" I can choose and almost was ready to just give up at moments for the first time today but still something deep inside allowed me to keep going. It was curiosity that led me to neal before God and surrender the thought of giving up, I know there is more to God and I am not ready to give up on Him. He is never ready to give up on us so it is just time to believe in something bigger then my self which is Jesus.
I walked into the church that we are working with and God gave me hope through this song. Reminded me of his works in my life, his love and his great forgiveness in my life.
"And I’m trying to make you sing
From inside where you believe
Like it’s something that you need
Like it means everything
And I’m trying to make you feel that
This is for real, that life is happening
That it means everything
I’m just trying to make you sing"
David Crowder Band
May the eyes of man be open to His glory. May His reality be our new reality because it is the truth to our freedom.
LOVE
Thursday, May 28, 2009
I can not keep my heart from you and I don't even care
Dear Family,
Jesus is moving in Scotland. We got to go to a school and share Jesus with kids in a assembly, many gave their live to Jesus and was very serious about it. Today we went out and worshiped on the streets and many people here is Scotland are restless with life so refuse to stop and talk. Many are also Hindu or Muslim so apologetic is so good for here because they know their stuff. OK, I am going to talk with prostitutes and homeless peps
Peace.
Jesus is moving in Scotland. We got to go to a school and share Jesus with kids in a assembly, many gave their live to Jesus and was very serious about it. Today we went out and worshiped on the streets and many people here is Scotland are restless with life so refuse to stop and talk. Many are also Hindu or Muslim so apologetic is so good for here because they know their stuff. OK, I am going to talk with prostitutes and homeless peps
Peace.
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Scotland is the next target!
Dear Family,
Jesus moved here in Northern Ireland, 319 came to know Jesus as Lord and Savior. It was a lot of work but very encouraging and a huge growth for all. Please pray for these new people walking life with Jesus, they are new and fresh meat for attacks from the enemy. God moved!
Scotland is next, the team leaves tomorrow morning. I have heard that Belfast is the easy place to talk to people. It is London that will be the most trouble, I am trying to not fear but I am nervous if not being ready for the challenge. Jesus will have to be in charge.
OK you all I have to go!
Love you all.
Jesus moved here in Northern Ireland, 319 came to know Jesus as Lord and Savior. It was a lot of work but very encouraging and a huge growth for all. Please pray for these new people walking life with Jesus, they are new and fresh meat for attacks from the enemy. God moved!
Scotland is next, the team leaves tomorrow morning. I have heard that Belfast is the easy place to talk to people. It is London that will be the most trouble, I am trying to not fear but I am nervous if not being ready for the challenge. Jesus will have to be in charge.
OK you all I have to go!
Love you all.
Monday, May 18, 2009
Northern Ireland is being ATTACKED!!!
Dear Family,
The North of Ireland is being attacked by JESUS. He is on the move 180 since we have been here have accepted Jesus as Lord and Savior. They are now walking with Jesus and will hopefully be falling in love with Him more as life goes on. People are ready to receive God into their live and have a transformation happen from the inside out.
I have ran in to people who are not open to Jesus but have many questions. I tried my best to give what I know. They are going to met up with Jesus later in life.
Good bye for now things are going well.
Love
The North of Ireland is being attacked by JESUS. He is on the move 180 since we have been here have accepted Jesus as Lord and Savior. They are now walking with Jesus and will hopefully be falling in love with Him more as life goes on. People are ready to receive God into their live and have a transformation happen from the inside out.
I have ran in to people who are not open to Jesus but have many questions. I tried my best to give what I know. They are going to met up with Jesus later in life.
Good bye for now things are going well.
Love
Monday, May 11, 2009
U.K.....
DEAR FAMILY,
The time has finally come for my leave to the U.K. I am thankful for you all who have donated and supported me and the team in prayer. We will continue needing your prayer so never stop praying for us. It is a beautiful day, the sun is bright, wind is breezing through the green trees, and I am relaxing presently. The relaxing part is short term.
I have wasted a lot of stress and strength on calling people raising money that I am worn out. I enjoy this feeling of tiredness but easily cracked by jokes in a way that is not funny. God is showing me his movement, 10,000 dollars came in last night. In a week I went from 3,000$ to 1,044.31$. My team has been touched and focused on by God. Brothers and Sisters have moved in love to help us get to our destination and for people to be introduced to Jesus.
Awe!!! I am so excited!!! I am going to do what I have been wanting to do for a long time! Tell people about Jesus, tell them about all the things he has done in our time, in our world, in my life. God has freed me from so much shame and fear that I am moving forward to a future with hope. No, it was not easy but Jesus pushed my wounded body to a better place. I have seen and know a piece of Gods glory. I have a mature mind set and a mature understand of people. I am able to love more then in the past, I am able to transport to other nations to share Jesus with people. It is not easy but it is necessary because we are surrounded by a thinned out world looking for something that will last and I am sure Jesus is that truth we are craving.
People are truly afraid of his condemnation and He will condemn if people do not know Him but He is ready to introduce himself to people, know them in ways that are true, real-in love.
ok, I am ready to give my self to people in a new way of love.
Bye, Fam.
The time has finally come for my leave to the U.K. I am thankful for you all who have donated and supported me and the team in prayer. We will continue needing your prayer so never stop praying for us. It is a beautiful day, the sun is bright, wind is breezing through the green trees, and I am relaxing presently. The relaxing part is short term.
I have wasted a lot of stress and strength on calling people raising money that I am worn out. I enjoy this feeling of tiredness but easily cracked by jokes in a way that is not funny. God is showing me his movement, 10,000 dollars came in last night. In a week I went from 3,000$ to 1,044.31$. My team has been touched and focused on by God. Brothers and Sisters have moved in love to help us get to our destination and for people to be introduced to Jesus.
Awe!!! I am so excited!!! I am going to do what I have been wanting to do for a long time! Tell people about Jesus, tell them about all the things he has done in our time, in our world, in my life. God has freed me from so much shame and fear that I am moving forward to a future with hope. No, it was not easy but Jesus pushed my wounded body to a better place. I have seen and know a piece of Gods glory. I have a mature mind set and a mature understand of people. I am able to love more then in the past, I am able to transport to other nations to share Jesus with people. It is not easy but it is necessary because we are surrounded by a thinned out world looking for something that will last and I am sure Jesus is that truth we are craving.
People are truly afraid of his condemnation and He will condemn if people do not know Him but He is ready to introduce himself to people, know them in ways that are true, real-in love.
ok, I am ready to give my self to people in a new way of love.
Bye, Fam.
Sunday, May 10, 2009
GO-GO!!!
Dear Family,
This maybe the last I write on my blog for six weeks. I leave tomorrow to the U.K. supper exciting. I am ready for this adventure with Jesus and the team. I have learned a lot about Jesus, God, and the Holy spirit that I am confident people will realize that I am not bring them the poser-Jesus (which is my american christianity).
I would like to explain the american christianity that I mention a lot of. I have come to realized my humanistic view of Christ. I do not believe in it but I support it..... maybe there is a piece of me that does then believe in it... Anyways. I realized that people talk about Jesus as a ticket to heaven. His church as another thing to do in the week to be "cool" or a "good guy";as if a sunday morning gathering could make any one better in the sight of God or in this world. In this culture that would like to see truth in their own eyes is cheating themselves of the glory of God by demeaning the life, death, resurrection of the Christ, Jesus.
I am convinced by living with Jesus and reading of his walk with his buddies on earth that He has shown his glory to us. I am seeing it and walking more with him then before and I plan to share all these things with people I met in my life. I know that God is going to move and it will be in a way that is unusual for me but that would be good.
Sorry, I hide the blame in the title of American too much when really it is just fallen humans-like me-that give in to the shallow faith. I do not know everything, I am still learning and I am sure my sight of Jesus will change more and more every day.
I am off to the U.K. to talk about a man whom lived in perfect unity with God and whom was sent from God to love us so that we would be in that same unity with God. I am going to share the great news that He made a path for us to know God and be with Him today and all our days.
I am in love with God. I am learning to live with him better everyday.
Peace family, I love you all.
I still need 1930$ -please donate.
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Waiting....
Dear Family,
I am at the end of myself and of the world that I live in. I sit have contacted people over and over again for money and many have either not responded or are in a hard place financially. I understand all and am not frustrated with any one, just simply frustrated with the waiting on when the money will come through. I need less then 3,000 dollars to go over seas.
I am annoyed with all the money issues this country is going through. I see the things of this world more then I do see Gods kingdom in movement. I would like to see more of Gods kingdom moving then see this kingdom move. And I do get glimpses of Gods movement- HE IS JUST VERY MYSTERIOUS.
God is doing amazing things in this moment. He had a random women come up to the YWAM Boston director to give 1,000$ to the students. I gave money to some of my fellow students here because God ask for it to be done. It is a strange process that is happening. God is on the move and I like that.
I have been questioning staying on staff here at YWAM Boston. I have been looking for this adventure, looking for this piece of the church. I may have found my new home here in Boston, still not sure. If I do stay please for those of you whom read this regularly, please talk with Jesus if you could be a monthly donate pale.
If you can help-then I am asking you to help. Move in Love not obligation.
Go to YWAMBOSTON.ORG to donate to a student. There are many that still need money so if you want to look at the other students to see if God leads you to help them too. We are all in this together.
Love you all, Thank you for your support.
I am at the end of myself and of the world that I live in. I sit have contacted people over and over again for money and many have either not responded or are in a hard place financially. I understand all and am not frustrated with any one, just simply frustrated with the waiting on when the money will come through. I need less then 3,000 dollars to go over seas.
I am annoyed with all the money issues this country is going through. I see the things of this world more then I do see Gods kingdom in movement. I would like to see more of Gods kingdom moving then see this kingdom move. And I do get glimpses of Gods movement- HE IS JUST VERY MYSTERIOUS.
God is doing amazing things in this moment. He had a random women come up to the YWAM Boston director to give 1,000$ to the students. I gave money to some of my fellow students here because God ask for it to be done. It is a strange process that is happening. God is on the move and I like that.
I have been questioning staying on staff here at YWAM Boston. I have been looking for this adventure, looking for this piece of the church. I may have found my new home here in Boston, still not sure. If I do stay please for those of you whom read this regularly, please talk with Jesus if you could be a monthly donate pale.
If you can help-then I am asking you to help. Move in Love not obligation.
Go to YWAMBOSTON.ORG to donate to a student. There are many that still need money so if you want to look at the other students to see if God leads you to help them too. We are all in this together.
Love you all, Thank you for your support.
Saturday, April 18, 2009
ART that is finished.
These are a few art pieces that I have been working on for these last few months. I have finished most this last week. Very satisfied about that.Truly has been fun. It is very mess at the moment but I will organize these pieces later and label them as well. For now enjoy looking at them. If you are interested in buying please let me know because I would like to sell them to gain income for my outreach of DTS. Thank you.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
The Parks
Dear Family,
Today I went out in to the city to share with people about Jesus and his faithfulness. Today I did not get to really talk to people about Jesus as much as I wished but people did get saved. Over all it is good because now people are in relationship with Jesus.
Out in the streets we did a performance called "Doors", which is about Jesus making a women hanging out with her. Then yummy sinful things come along tempting her, distracting her from Jesus; she leaves His side. She gets involved in drugs, then materialism, then romantic lust which goes into abortion. From there she goes to suicide but runs away to try being with Jesus. Then sin gets in the way leading to Jesus being hung on the cross. Of course the play goes to him raising from death, breaking sin, and being back in relationship with the girl. It was a tear jerker, NO JOKE, I almost cried because it had a reality to it.
I spoke to these two guys, who left at the call, I walked with them away from the play. I was talking to them, one responded he was not ready to follow Jesus because he was going to do illegal things, still be in problems that would be offensive to Jesus. I told him that Jesus loves him, Jesus is with him. Jesus wants him and I told him just that- NO NEED TO BE PERFECT, it is all in grace. He did not understand, nor allowed it to be the last word.
Yep there were a lot if hard moments today. I enjoyed it a lot. I now that talking about Jesus is something that I want to do forever because honestly that is all that will be forever.
Jordan.
P.S. I leave to out reach in three weeks, pray for me and if you could help me in paying for out reach I would love that. Please let me know if you could help me out. : )
Sunday, April 12, 2009
"Hm.... " He said in a tone of understanding.
Dear Family,
My love is real for you. This night has been filled with answers that are of hope. I am not a good person, not a very happy one neither to be exact. I think very harsh things towards people and I share this with you because I would like to overcome to be filled with Christs love even more. I thought that my foundations had to be fully removed so I tried to allow them to be but then I found out that I was right about some of my foundations that I had entered in to YWAM with. My thoughts are right but my heart was not. It is very much of a kick in the head to realize that these thoughts are correct but motives to my actions are incorrect. Altogether in the words of Swichtfoot "I am learning to breathe".
I understand more of who God had imagined me to be more of. I am a O.K. person, truly not the best but sufficient. People may not view me very sufficient and I would agree with some of their reasons of why. Ultimately I have to love the way I was created to love others. God ultimately gave me a specific task to do here on earth and enjoy doing with him (I am still finding what that is). All I know is that tonight/today was real, I saw a piece of the man God would like me to be and how I knew was my skin fit the suite of the character. I enjoyed being that person, that guy whom was free in laughter.
I do see a father side in me after hanging out with kids all day. I do see a talented person in the arts of many kind. I also see a very patient, enjoyable person in me too. Yep, God did put a few good pieces of His character in me. He is very generous in wisdom and kindness.
I ask/want the fullness and completeness of Christ in my life. Yes, I do encourage you to allow the same to happen in your life.
I love you.
jordan
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Things are moving along and I would like to grow faster.
Dear Family,
I am doing well. I am allowing God to correct my heart and change my attitude towards others. I am learning to love with a new mind. I am doing the right actions but missing the correct heart; thankfully God is kind enough to make me a being then just a shell. My heart hurts and I would like to get this process moving faster... God knows I am uncomfortable with the heart change.
My growth in Christ is becoming less and less about me, rather it is now about God as well generations after me. I want to impact people, their spirits, their dialog with Jesus. I do not know all in all yet still trying to figure out how and what this life is all about. I hear many different things and would like to say its a balanced but maybe this life is for only focusing on one moment at a time. At this moment as I type I can feel my heart begin to race by my deep wanting to know how should I live.
Love God and Love People- is the way to live, general with easy actions for the most part until you get the motives examined then things hit the fan. I am competitive- I realized this by my jealousy towards others, I need to number one in all things... I am a sucker for being the best. LAME!!! I need to deal with all the ugly things in my heart and live in the kingdom of God. That is difficult because grace. I accept this grace.
God is very kind to us. We can all say "I have almost die" everyday because every time we walk away from God is the moment we should be forgotten, removed from any solid and spiritual being. He is kind.
Have fun.
Jordan
I am doing well. I am allowing God to correct my heart and change my attitude towards others. I am learning to love with a new mind. I am doing the right actions but missing the correct heart; thankfully God is kind enough to make me a being then just a shell. My heart hurts and I would like to get this process moving faster... God knows I am uncomfortable with the heart change.
My growth in Christ is becoming less and less about me, rather it is now about God as well generations after me. I want to impact people, their spirits, their dialog with Jesus. I do not know all in all yet still trying to figure out how and what this life is all about. I hear many different things and would like to say its a balanced but maybe this life is for only focusing on one moment at a time. At this moment as I type I can feel my heart begin to race by my deep wanting to know how should I live.
Love God and Love People- is the way to live, general with easy actions for the most part until you get the motives examined then things hit the fan. I am competitive- I realized this by my jealousy towards others, I need to number one in all things... I am a sucker for being the best. LAME!!! I need to deal with all the ugly things in my heart and live in the kingdom of God. That is difficult because grace. I accept this grace.
God is very kind to us. We can all say "I have almost die" everyday because every time we walk away from God is the moment we should be forgotten, removed from any solid and spiritual being. He is kind.
Have fun.
Jordan
Sunday, April 5, 2009
Jealousy
Jealous: adj. resentfully envious.
I have been avoiding looking deep in my heart these last few weeks but Jesus forcefully kept my mind alert to this junk in my heart. Now I must come clean and write about a piece of my heart that is bother some to Jesus and I. I need your prayers for this because it is keeping me in a rut.
I have been realizing in my heart I have jealousy towards many people in my life. The jealousy has been evolved from a thought that they have a future and I do not. I have messed up my life far too much that God can not redeem me for this life time. I have been accepting the past as a bump in the road, a really intimidating bump that brings shame to me. I have much fear.
Then I look at the people around me with their freedom and talents that are far more noticed and developed then mine. With fear and regret of my past I birth jealousy towards them. I compare myself to many, stay in my childish ways that have thoughts of "Why can I not have that life, that freedom, that talent? Where is the redemption?"
Another issue is my brain has difficulty in putting out information, I have to study a lot. I see these people be newly introduce to a tool, instrument, art style then just get it together, understand it all. I sit still at the beginning stage and suddenly to myself I course my brain for not being able to carry information then practice and have fun with it. I have to sit, study, get every detail, put so much time in to understanding. It frustrates me, this process takes away from me I almost feel.
I truly do not accept the work that Jesus has done in me. This fact hurts God, this fact that lives in my heart is the Antichrist in me. I am trying to be satisfied with whom Christ made me to be, to accept that it is not about me, it is about him. To reject his generosity for creating this person, this man know to him as Jordan would be grieving to Him. This action will mourn His hopes, His spirit and at the end of the day I may hear him say "Jordan, where are you?". I must stop comparing, accepting the idea I have not a successful future. To accept this is not to be a better human but to bring my Father a smile, a home to delight in. I want to be His joy, to be his joy will be to act in the manner he has imaged me to act in.
Please pray for me. This is interfering with Gods pleasures. LET THIS LIFE BE LIVED TO BRING DELIGHT TO THE FATHER.
If you struggle with jealousy, I understand and would encourage you to breathe and just let Gods words sink deeply in to your mind, spirit and body (by body I mean get a tattoo, LOL).
Shalom.
I have been avoiding looking deep in my heart these last few weeks but Jesus forcefully kept my mind alert to this junk in my heart. Now I must come clean and write about a piece of my heart that is bother some to Jesus and I. I need your prayers for this because it is keeping me in a rut.
I have been realizing in my heart I have jealousy towards many people in my life. The jealousy has been evolved from a thought that they have a future and I do not. I have messed up my life far too much that God can not redeem me for this life time. I have been accepting the past as a bump in the road, a really intimidating bump that brings shame to me. I have much fear.
Then I look at the people around me with their freedom and talents that are far more noticed and developed then mine. With fear and regret of my past I birth jealousy towards them. I compare myself to many, stay in my childish ways that have thoughts of "Why can I not have that life, that freedom, that talent? Where is the redemption?"
Another issue is my brain has difficulty in putting out information, I have to study a lot. I see these people be newly introduce to a tool, instrument, art style then just get it together, understand it all. I sit still at the beginning stage and suddenly to myself I course my brain for not being able to carry information then practice and have fun with it. I have to sit, study, get every detail, put so much time in to understanding. It frustrates me, this process takes away from me I almost feel.
I truly do not accept the work that Jesus has done in me. This fact hurts God, this fact that lives in my heart is the Antichrist in me. I am trying to be satisfied with whom Christ made me to be, to accept that it is not about me, it is about him. To reject his generosity for creating this person, this man know to him as Jordan would be grieving to Him. This action will mourn His hopes, His spirit and at the end of the day I may hear him say "Jordan, where are you?". I must stop comparing, accepting the idea I have not a successful future. To accept this is not to be a better human but to bring my Father a smile, a home to delight in. I want to be His joy, to be his joy will be to act in the manner he has imaged me to act in.
Please pray for me. This is interfering with Gods pleasures. LET THIS LIFE BE LIVED TO BRING DELIGHT TO THE FATHER.
If you struggle with jealousy, I understand and would encourage you to breathe and just let Gods words sink deeply in to your mind, spirit and body (by body I mean get a tattoo, LOL).
Shalom.
Friday, April 3, 2009
Dear Family,
I have 5 weeks until out reach and I need help financially. The cost for out reach is 3800$ I currently have none of that, please pray about giving, talking to people you know would like to donate to a missionary. I will spend 10 days in the U.K., Scotland, then Ireland (to each ten days). I will be dancing, acting and talking to all the people I can about Jesus. I will serve and be a living sacrifice, which I know will be the best part of all. I am excited to put all my energy in to the weeks of our reach. Thank you.
Here is a good video.
The House!!!!
Here is a video of my home and of some people I am doing this DTS with. I personally enjoy the first scene. Enjoy.
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Down Load!!!
Dear family,
I am learning!
Let me share with you some historical facts and archeological findings. The bible was written in three continents Africa, Asia, Europe. The bible's events happened over 1,500 years. The characters written of or whom wrote pieces were of many different status such as poets, warriors, kings, slaves, servants, and few other more. There are 40 or more authors that wrote the books in the bible, it is amazing that these authors of different statuses wrote about the same God in personality.
Three languages were used to write the bible Hebrews, Greek, Aramaic (aramaic was used for Ezra and Daniel). Historical settings of the bible are oppression, war, revolutionary and peace. There has been 7,500 old testament fragments or full books found. New Testament was written between 50-100 a.d. The earliest known copies have been dated to around 125 A.D. Over 24,970 fragments of the New Testament manuscript copies.
1947 was a important biblical founding, a child named Muhammad was seeking for his sheep. While seeking he through a rock in to cracks in the ground that led to caves which then to his surprise heard a sound of pots crackling. Come to find out it was 36 complete chapters of Isaiah (which rolls out to 24.5 feet long). The cave in which all this found is call the Qumran, check it out.
Capernaum is the town where Jesus was born (Matt 17:24), its a real city, thats all..... The walls of Jericho were found and the walls were pushed out ward. Rahab house still stands like written in Joshua 6:24-25. It is sweet!
There are some historians that write about Jesus and his followers. Pliny the Younger whom was a lawyer, scientist. Flavious Josephus was a jewish historian that mentions Jesus in his writings. Julius Africanus writes about the darkness covering the earth when Jesus was on the cross. It is pretty sweet.
Correct me if I have fact wrong but this is the best I got from notes and memory.
I will stop there for today. Thank you for reading. Sorry for such a long delay.
Please keep this DTS in your dialogue with Jesus.
Jordan
Thursday, March 12, 2009
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Dear Family,
WOW it has been too long. I sit, begin to write, then out of the blue comes a new event to get to. God has been moving in my life, He is changing my views about life, how to live, where to go, all these different things. I am still working on art, acting, meeting people, but above all I am hanging out with Jesus. He has been the only person that I have been interested in talking with. Yes and like I had just wrote that something comes up in the process of writing on this blog site. Sorry I have been slacking but time will come to write more. Ilove you all. Thank you and keep living with Jesus.
WOW it has been too long. I sit, begin to write, then out of the blue comes a new event to get to. God has been moving in my life, He is changing my views about life, how to live, where to go, all these different things. I am still working on art, acting, meeting people, but above all I am hanging out with Jesus. He has been the only person that I have been interested in talking with. Yes and like I had just wrote that something comes up in the process of writing on this blog site. Sorry I have been slacking but time will come to write more. Ilove you all. Thank you and keep living with Jesus.
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Settlements
I had some tension with another student this last week. Surprisingly, we did not get along. You may find me crazy but THIS MADE ME SUPPER EXCITED-to be challenged by another persons thoughts, living, and character brings some new growth. We confronted each other and backed off from each other for a while before the day was over. I went to bed calm about the issue not worried about he and I, more worried if this conflict would effect the team. For myself individually, I went to bed excited to overcome this conflict, learn how to work with each other and not harm the team. The process of canceling the conflict had begun with the confrontation but now its dealing with each other in new ways. It has been going well.
Be praying for more unity in the team. We also need prayer for our finances because many of us do not have any. Well have a good day. LOVE GOD WITH YOUR EVERYTHING and all else will follow. : )
Jordan
Be praying for more unity in the team. We also need prayer for our finances because many of us do not have any. Well have a good day. LOVE GOD WITH YOUR EVERYTHING and all else will follow. : )
Jordan
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
RUNNING SO FAST!!!
Hello Family.
Life has been crazy and a lot of fun. I have seen some cool moments here at DTS. I have new tools to use for the glory of God. I have a good team in DTS, there is a balance of crazy people and calm people . John is the name of my room-mate (he is a student-as you may figure) I LOVE THIS FOOL. He is a good guy who plays awesome screaming music for God, has a funny way of thought and living life. He is a good room-mate, helps me laugh and live in the moment...as well neat and clean. Lucas is another guy (who is a lot like me but obtains information better then me), he knows his history, philosophy, and statistics well. He is also learning to lighten up his thought process and rely on Gods wisdom and knowledge more then his own; which I know is a difficult discipline to begin. Joe is the next person I shall write about. Joe is another deep thoughted person more along the lines of Theology thought process then Lucas (and they are roomates-hehe that is funny to me). Joe is a visual artist, he draws the human figure with a slight anime effect to the figure. He as well sings, plays guitar and would like to become more involved in playing in the church. Gerad (I did not spell this name correct) He is a dancer, drummer. Learned hip-hop on the streets of CANADA and learned the drums in about a month or so. Very well at both! His personality is loud, fun, and sensitive when need to be. Matt plays guitar while singing, his voice is a rough voice that give character to songs he sings. Matt's personality is sensictive and goofy. Gerad and Matt are roomates so that is funny too. I notice that all the similar personalities are together so that is awesome and brings a lot of personality harmonies. Last week in the guys place there was a lot of personality conflict that was not addressed but I would like to think we are learning to confornt each other or just simply say stop talking. They are all good guys and we all personality wise compliment each other for the most part. They encourage me to take more risks in life. I HAVE DRANK FROM TWO PERSONS CUP and that is a big deal for me. I hug and fight them, they hug and fight me-fare trade! The honnie moon is over and reality is setteling in that we are living together for 7 months so we are becoming very honest with each other and shareing more with each other.
God has been teaching me to live. He keeps telling me to live with him, be with his friends. I havent found any deep thought provoking things to mediate on but I am ok with that for right now. I have met many new people who would like to follow God, be near him through out their lives-to the end. It is a good start and I can not waite to be strechted more for the glory of God. I will hopefully place pics up soon on this blog sight.
Brothers/ Sisters seek the Kingdom of God and tell me what you see.
Good Night FOOLS!!!!
Life has been crazy and a lot of fun. I have seen some cool moments here at DTS. I have new tools to use for the glory of God. I have a good team in DTS, there is a balance of crazy people and calm people . John is the name of my room-mate (he is a student-as you may figure) I LOVE THIS FOOL. He is a good guy who plays awesome screaming music for God, has a funny way of thought and living life. He is a good room-mate, helps me laugh and live in the moment...as well neat and clean. Lucas is another guy (who is a lot like me but obtains information better then me), he knows his history, philosophy, and statistics well. He is also learning to lighten up his thought process and rely on Gods wisdom and knowledge more then his own; which I know is a difficult discipline to begin. Joe is the next person I shall write about. Joe is another deep thoughted person more along the lines of Theology thought process then Lucas (and they are roomates-hehe that is funny to me). Joe is a visual artist, he draws the human figure with a slight anime effect to the figure. He as well sings, plays guitar and would like to become more involved in playing in the church. Gerad (I did not spell this name correct) He is a dancer, drummer. Learned hip-hop on the streets of CANADA and learned the drums in about a month or so. Very well at both! His personality is loud, fun, and sensitive when need to be. Matt plays guitar while singing, his voice is a rough voice that give character to songs he sings. Matt's personality is sensictive and goofy. Gerad and Matt are roomates so that is funny too. I notice that all the similar personalities are together so that is awesome and brings a lot of personality harmonies. Last week in the guys place there was a lot of personality conflict that was not addressed but I would like to think we are learning to confornt each other or just simply say stop talking. They are all good guys and we all personality wise compliment each other for the most part. They encourage me to take more risks in life. I HAVE DRANK FROM TWO PERSONS CUP and that is a big deal for me. I hug and fight them, they hug and fight me-fare trade! The honnie moon is over and reality is setteling in that we are living together for 7 months so we are becoming very honest with each other and shareing more with each other.
God has been teaching me to live. He keeps telling me to live with him, be with his friends. I havent found any deep thought provoking things to mediate on but I am ok with that for right now. I have met many new people who would like to follow God, be near him through out their lives-to the end. It is a good start and I can not waite to be strechted more for the glory of God. I will hopefully place pics up soon on this blog sight.
Brothers/ Sisters seek the Kingdom of God and tell me what you see.
Good Night FOOLS!!!!
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
ONE WEEK NOW
Hello Family
I am moving around a lot. Very busy at moments then very slow at other moments. The guys and I have gotten close over this last week. Monday was a hard day for all the guys, we were grumps! It maybe us or the creepers from the dark, it you know what I mean.
Spiritual Junk. SO, I have realized that when I begin to do my art forms I become supper insecure not by the fear of being horrible but just simply nerves. I think at moments how is this art piece, dance, writting going to change some ones life, I fear most that it will be lame, unable to get accross to others that there is a message being shown/spoke/lived now. Pray for my friends class begins bye.
I am moving around a lot. Very busy at moments then very slow at other moments. The guys and I have gotten close over this last week. Monday was a hard day for all the guys, we were grumps! It maybe us or the creepers from the dark, it you know what I mean.
Spiritual Junk. SO, I have realized that when I begin to do my art forms I become supper insecure not by the fear of being horrible but just simply nerves. I think at moments how is this art piece, dance, writting going to change some ones life, I fear most that it will be lame, unable to get accross to others that there is a message being shown/spoke/lived now. Pray for my friends class begins bye.
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Yep, day 3... i think
Hello Family,
I am with the newly met Family. It is still going well, we all have a general understanding as well respect for each other. The first day I told the team about my pharisee walk and my disappointments with the church being stagnate in walking forward in furthering the Kingdom of God. I have an idea that they do not know what I am talking about but that is fine, we have seven months to live together so it is well. The first night I was the first to share, it was awesome because people shared where they're background which brought comfort in knowing that I am not the only one with the same thoughts and burden. Truly we are growing to be like minded, very distant still but a movement is happening.
God has all ready begun the tug at my soul to fall all pride to his feet for others and my own freedom be lived out these next few months and hopefully life. God is a free God and I am trying to remember what I have learned from books I have recently read.
This is incomplete but time to go to sleep.
Good nigh
I am with the newly met Family. It is still going well, we all have a general understanding as well respect for each other. The first day I told the team about my pharisee walk and my disappointments with the church being stagnate in walking forward in furthering the Kingdom of God. I have an idea that they do not know what I am talking about but that is fine, we have seven months to live together so it is well. The first night I was the first to share, it was awesome because people shared where they're background which brought comfort in knowing that I am not the only one with the same thoughts and burden. Truly we are growing to be like minded, very distant still but a movement is happening.
God has all ready begun the tug at my soul to fall all pride to his feet for others and my own freedom be lived out these next few months and hopefully life. God is a free God and I am trying to remember what I have learned from books I have recently read.
This is incomplete but time to go to sleep.
Good nigh
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
OK it is not so cold as I thought in BOSTON
Dear Family,
IT HAS BEGUN. I am sitting in my new home with a few new buddies and they are all different (in a good way). I am typing on a Del, sadly not a Mac, but Del is sufficient. I am very great-full to be here presently, everything is going well.
The people are awesome! Three are in to Halo, Metal Gear and that is all I know so far: that is awesome. So far manly musicians are the main art form that is being exercised here. I have talked to most of the guys here and yep all have some sort of musical background. Acting would be the second talent exercised here in YWAM Boston. I think we are all going to get along well.
Alright the flight was FANTASTIC, simple and quick. I walked in, used the toilet, washed my hands, walked out and started the process of bagging. I was originally in a middle seat but they gave me the option to move to another seat, which I took by a window. The middle seat was empty between the guy and myself, so we were comfy. The plane ride was peaceful, in my mind I could stop saying "Thank you Jesus", I was so great-full everything worked out well. I felt at home on a plane, relaxed and able to breathe again. On the plane I saw the most amazing view of CA beaches, I saw the area Brandon and I drew at on the pear. The water was messy but yet enjoyable to look at. As we flew closer to Boston snow was visible on the desert floors. We past Colorado so I was so happy to get a glimpse of such a pretty state. I read all on the plane finished one book and almost finished another and in both books I was already in the middle of so please dont think I am a fast reader...although I am working for such a goal... Anyways I arrived in Boston and it is not so cold 33 degrees, not so bad. I loved it. My skin was cooling off from all the heat in CA. I saw my breathe in the air, talked already to some strange people, who may have been speaking french. Then this guy walking around with a sign that says YWAM in the center and Jordan on top was walking around the bag claming area. I noticed him and walked up to him and said "YWAM, Jordan...yep thats me". It was a great intorduction.
OK LOVE YOU ALL.
Jordan
IT HAS BEGUN. I am sitting in my new home with a few new buddies and they are all different (in a good way). I am typing on a Del, sadly not a Mac, but Del is sufficient. I am very great-full to be here presently, everything is going well.
The people are awesome! Three are in to Halo, Metal Gear and that is all I know so far: that is awesome. So far manly musicians are the main art form that is being exercised here. I have talked to most of the guys here and yep all have some sort of musical background. Acting would be the second talent exercised here in YWAM Boston. I think we are all going to get along well.
Alright the flight was FANTASTIC, simple and quick. I walked in, used the toilet, washed my hands, walked out and started the process of bagging. I was originally in a middle seat but they gave me the option to move to another seat, which I took by a window. The middle seat was empty between the guy and myself, so we were comfy. The plane ride was peaceful, in my mind I could stop saying "Thank you Jesus", I was so great-full everything worked out well. I felt at home on a plane, relaxed and able to breathe again. On the plane I saw the most amazing view of CA beaches, I saw the area Brandon and I drew at on the pear. The water was messy but yet enjoyable to look at. As we flew closer to Boston snow was visible on the desert floors. We past Colorado so I was so happy to get a glimpse of such a pretty state. I read all on the plane finished one book and almost finished another and in both books I was already in the middle of so please dont think I am a fast reader...although I am working for such a goal... Anyways I arrived in Boston and it is not so cold 33 degrees, not so bad. I loved it. My skin was cooling off from all the heat in CA. I saw my breathe in the air, talked already to some strange people, who may have been speaking french. Then this guy walking around with a sign that says YWAM in the center and Jordan on top was walking around the bag claming area. I noticed him and walked up to him and said "YWAM, Jordan...yep thats me". It was a great intorduction.
OK LOVE YOU ALL.
Jordan
Dear Family, friends this includes you too.
I leave today!!! The moment we have been waiting for is here. I love you all and accept your love. Thank you for putting up with me and encouraging me. I will tell many about our stories together and the things we have seen God move in and through each other.
I AM READY TO SEE THE WORLD. I am going to a new home!
Love you all.
Jordan
I leave today!!! The moment we have been waiting for is here. I love you all and accept your love. Thank you for putting up with me and encouraging me. I will tell many about our stories together and the things we have seen God move in and through each other.
I AM READY TO SEE THE WORLD. I am going to a new home!
Love you all.
Jordan
Friday, January 9, 2009
Good-times!
Dear Reader-family-friends
I love you all. I am great-full for all your support in prayers and finances. All have played a important part in this time of waiting. I am leaving this Tuesday, charged with a readiness to see lives changed around Boston, within the team and myself.
These last few weeks I have been working on art and I had finished 6 new pieces. 3 have been sold to help my finance for YWAM. The pieces that are left are still up for sell but maybe raised in price.
Thank you for your support and love.
Jordan
I love you all. I am great-full for all your support in prayers and finances. All have played a important part in this time of waiting. I am leaving this Tuesday, charged with a readiness to see lives changed around Boston, within the team and myself.
These last few weeks I have been working on art and I had finished 6 new pieces. 3 have been sold to help my finance for YWAM. The pieces that are left are still up for sell but maybe raised in price.
Thank you for your support and love.
Jordan
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