Things are moving along and I would like to grow faster.

Dear Family,

I am doing well. I am allowing God to correct my heart and change my attitude towards others. I am learning to love with a new mind. I am doing the right actions but missing the correct heart; thankfully God is kind enough to make me a being then just a shell. My heart hurts and I would like to get this process moving faster... God knows I am uncomfortable with the heart change.

My growth in Christ is becoming less and less about me, rather it is now about God as well generations after me. I want to impact people, their spirits, their dialog with Jesus. I do not know all in all yet still trying to figure out how and what this life is all about. I hear many different things and would like to say its a balanced but maybe this life is for only focusing on one moment at a time. At this moment as I type I can feel my heart begin to race by my deep wanting to know how should I live.

Love God and Love People- is the way to live, general with easy actions for the most part until you get the motives examined then things hit the fan. I am competitive- I realized this by my jealousy towards others, I need to number one in all things... I am a sucker for being the best. LAME!!! I need to deal with all the ugly things in my heart and live in the kingdom of God. That is difficult because grace. I accept this grace.

God is very kind to us. We can all say "I have almost die" everyday because every time we walk away from God is the moment we should be forgotten, removed from any solid and spiritual being. He is kind.

Have fun.
Jordan