ART that is finished.

These are a few art pieces that I have been working on for these last few months. I have finished most this last week. Very satisfied about that.Truly has been fun. It is very mess at the moment but I will organize these pieces later and label them as well. For now enjoy looking at them. If you are interested in buying please let me know because I would like to sell them to gain income for my outreach of DTS. Thank you.

The Parks

Dear Family,

Today I went out in to the city to share with people about Jesus and his faithfulness. Today I did not get to really talk to people about Jesus as much as I wished but people did get saved. Over all it is good because now people are in relationship with Jesus. 

Out in the streets we did a performance  called "Doors", which is about Jesus making a women hanging out with her. Then yummy sinful things come along tempting her, distracting her from Jesus; she leaves His side. She gets involved in drugs, then materialism, then romantic lust which goes into abortion. From there she goes to suicide but runs away to try being with Jesus. Then sin gets in the way leading to Jesus being hung on the cross. Of course the play goes to him raising from death, breaking sin, and being back in relationship with the girl. It was a tear jerker, NO JOKE, I almost cried because it had a reality to it. 

I spoke to these two guys, who left at the call, I walked with them away from the play. I was talking to them, one responded he was not ready to follow Jesus because he was going to do illegal things, still be in problems that would be offensive to Jesus. I told him that Jesus loves him, Jesus is with him. Jesus wants him and I told him just that- NO NEED TO BE PERFECT, it is all in grace. He did not understand, nor allowed it to be the last word. 

Yep there were a lot if hard moments today. I enjoyed it a lot. I now that talking about Jesus is something that I want to do forever because honestly that is all that will be forever. 

Jordan.

P.S. I leave to out reach in three weeks, pray for me and if you could help me in paying for out reach I would love that. Please let me know if you could help me out.  : )

"Hm.... " He said in a tone of understanding.

Dear Family,

My love is real for you. This night has been filled with answers that are of hope. I am not a good person, not a very happy one neither to be exact. I think very harsh things towards people and I share this with you because I would like to overcome to be filled with Christs love even more. I thought that my foundations had to be fully removed so I tried to allow them to be but then I found out that I was right about some of my foundations that I had entered in to YWAM with. My thoughts are right but my heart was not. It is very much of a kick in the head to realize that these thoughts are correct but motives to my actions are incorrect. Altogether in the words of Swichtfoot "I am learning to breathe". 

I understand more of who God had imagined me to be more of. I am a O.K. person, truly not the best but sufficient. People may not view me very sufficient and I would agree with some of their reasons of why. Ultimately I have to love the way I was created to love others. God ultimately gave me a specific task to do here on earth and enjoy doing with him (I am still finding what that is). All I know is that tonight/today was real, I saw a piece of the man God would like me to be and how I knew was my skin fit the suite of the character. I enjoyed being that person, that guy whom was free in laughter. 

I do see a father side in me after hanging out with kids all day. I do see a talented person in the arts of many kind. I also see a very patient, enjoyable person in me too. Yep, God did put a few good pieces of His character in me. He is very generous in wisdom and kindness. 

I ask/want the fullness and completeness of Christ in my life. Yes, I do encourage you to allow the same to happen in your life. 

I love you.

jordan 

Things are moving along and I would like to grow faster.

Dear Family,

I am doing well. I am allowing God to correct my heart and change my attitude towards others. I am learning to love with a new mind. I am doing the right actions but missing the correct heart; thankfully God is kind enough to make me a being then just a shell. My heart hurts and I would like to get this process moving faster... God knows I am uncomfortable with the heart change.

My growth in Christ is becoming less and less about me, rather it is now about God as well generations after me. I want to impact people, their spirits, their dialog with Jesus. I do not know all in all yet still trying to figure out how and what this life is all about. I hear many different things and would like to say its a balanced but maybe this life is for only focusing on one moment at a time. At this moment as I type I can feel my heart begin to race by my deep wanting to know how should I live.

Love God and Love People- is the way to live, general with easy actions for the most part until you get the motives examined then things hit the fan. I am competitive- I realized this by my jealousy towards others, I need to number one in all things... I am a sucker for being the best. LAME!!! I need to deal with all the ugly things in my heart and live in the kingdom of God. That is difficult because grace. I accept this grace.

God is very kind to us. We can all say "I have almost die" everyday because every time we walk away from God is the moment we should be forgotten, removed from any solid and spiritual being. He is kind.

Have fun.
Jordan

Jealousy

Jealous: adj. resentfully envious.

I have been avoiding looking deep in my heart these last few weeks but Jesus forcefully kept my mind alert to this junk in my heart. Now I must come clean and write about a piece of my heart that is bother some to Jesus and I. I need your prayers for this because it is keeping me in a rut.

I have been realizing in my heart I have jealousy towards many people in my life. The jealousy has been evolved from a thought that they have a future and I do not. I have messed up my life far too much that God can not redeem me for this life time. I have been accepting the past as a bump in the road, a really intimidating bump that brings shame to me. I have much fear.

Then I look at the people around me with their freedom and talents that are far more noticed and developed then mine. With fear and regret of my past I birth jealousy towards them. I compare myself to many, stay in my childish ways that have thoughts of "Why can I not have that life, that freedom, that talent? Where is the redemption?"

Another issue is my brain has difficulty in putting out information, I have to study a lot. I see these people be newly introduce to a tool, instrument, art style then just get it together, understand it all. I sit still at the beginning stage and suddenly to myself I course my brain for not being able to carry information then practice and have fun with it. I have to sit, study, get every detail, put so much time in to understanding. It frustrates me, this process takes away from me I almost feel.

I truly do not accept the work that Jesus has done in me. This fact hurts God, this fact that lives in my heart is the Antichrist in me. I am trying to be satisfied with whom Christ made me to be, to accept that it is not about me, it is about him. To reject his generosity for creating this person, this man know to him as Jordan would be grieving to Him. This action will mourn His hopes, His spirit and at the end of the day I may hear him say "Jordan, where are you?". I must stop comparing, accepting the idea I have not a successful future. To accept this is not to be a better human but to bring my Father a smile, a home to delight in. I want to be His joy, to be his joy will be to act in the manner he has imaged me to act in.

Please pray for me. This is interfering with Gods pleasures. LET THIS LIFE BE LIVED TO BRING DELIGHT TO THE FATHER.

If you struggle with jealousy, I understand and would encourage you to breathe and just let Gods words sink deeply in to your mind, spirit and body (by body I mean get a tattoo, LOL).

Shalom.

Dear Family,

I have 5 weeks until out reach and I need help financially. The cost for out reach is 3800$ I currently have none of that, please pray about giving, talking to people you know would like to donate to a missionary. I will spend 10 days in the U.K., Scotland, then Ireland (to each ten days). I will be dancing, acting and talking to all the people I can about Jesus. I will serve and be a living sacrifice, which I know will be the best part of all. I am excited to put all my energy in to the weeks of our reach.  Thank you. 

Here is a good video. 

The House!!!!

Here is a video of my home and of some people I am doing this DTS with. I personally enjoy the first scene. Enjoy.