Rejections becomes so tirered-some

Dear Family,
I am presently living in a house and you have no idea how good it feels to be in a bed for the first time in a long time. I have my own room so I am spending much time reading and talking with Jesus. My host is very kind, make sures I have enough to be comfortable. I am very grateful to be in a house rather then be in a church or a room filled with odd smells that are unexplainable...
This new place is a town outside of London and let me tell you the people here are not so open to hearing about Jesus. I was speechless to how people would bring up excuses or ideas to why things are the way they are, people accept anything to avoid dealing with difficult questions about life and coming before God. Yes, rejections is difficult to accept but I can handle it better now then in the past. I am rather finding it delightful to be disliked by some people; at least these few are being honest about rejecting the message of Christ. I am tired and I have hit the gravel with my simple faith. I walked into a restroom and told God "I am ready to go through the term oil with you because I know you have already gone through, now let me come with you" I can choose and almost was ready to just give up at moments for the first time today but still something deep inside allowed me to keep going. It was curiosity that led me to neal before God and surrender the thought of giving up, I know there is more to God and I am not ready to give up on Him. He is never ready to give up on us so it is just time to believe in something bigger then my self which is Jesus.
I walked into the church that we are working with and God gave me hope through this song. Reminded me of his works in my life, his love and his great forgiveness in my life.

"And I’m trying to make you sing
From inside where you believe
Like it’s something that you need
Like it means everything
And I’m trying to make you feel that
This is for real, that life is happening
That it means everything
I’m just trying to make you sing"
David Crowder Band

May the eyes of man be open to His glory. May His reality be our new reality because it is the truth to our freedom.
LOVE